Saturday, January 8, 2011

For the first time when I lost it all I had to dream awake..


The Perfect Way knows no difficulties
Except that it refuses to make preferences;
Only when freed from hate and love,
It reveals itself fully and without disguise;
A tenth of an inch's difference,
And heaven and earth are set apart;
If you wish to see it before your own eyes,
Have no fixed thoughts either for or against it.

To set up what you like against what you dislike
This is the disease of the mind:
When the deep meaning [of the Way] is not understood
Peace of mind is disturbed to no purpose.

[The Way is] perfect like unto vast space,
With nothing wanting, nothing superfluous:
It is indeed due to making choice
That its suchness is lost sight of.

Pursue not the outer entanglements,
Dwell not in the inner void;
Be serene in the oneness of things,
And [dualism] vanishes by itself.

When you strive to gain quiescence by stopping motion,
The quiescence thus gained is ever in motion;
As long as you tarry in the dualism,
How can you realize oneness?

And when oneness is not thoroughly understood,
In two ways loss is sustained:
The denying of reality is the asserting of it,
And the asserting of emptiness is the denying of it.

Wordiness and intellection -
The more with them the further astray we go;
Away therefore with wordiness and intellection,
And there is no place where we cannot pass freely.

When we return to the root, we gain the meaning;
When we pursue external objects, we lose the reason.
The moment we are enlightened within,
We go beyond the voidness of a world confronting us.
Transformations going on in an empty world which confronts us
Appear real all because of Ignorance:
Try not to seek after the true,
Only cease to cherish opinions.
Abide not with dualism,
Carefully avoid pursuing it;
As soon as you have right and wrong,
Confusion ensues, and Mind is lost.

The two exist because of the One,
But hold not even to this One;
When a mind is not disturbed,
The ten thousand things offer no offence.

No offence offered, and no ten thousand things;
No disturbance going, and no mind set up to work:
The subject is quieted when the object ceases,
The object ceases when the subject is quieted.

The object is an object for the subject,
The subject is a subject for the object:
Know that the relativity of the two
Rests ultimately on one Emptiness.
In one Emptiness the two are not distinguished,
And each contains in itself all the ten thousand things
When no discrimination is made between this and that.
How can a one-sided and prejudiced view arise?
The Great Way is calm and large-hearted,
For it, nothing is easy, nothing is hard;
Small views are irresolute,
The more in haste the tardier they go.

Clinging is never kept within bounds,
It is sure to go the wrong way;
Quit it, and things follow their own courses,
While the Essence neither departs nor abides.

Obey the nature of things, and you are in concord with the Way,
Calm and easy and free from annoyance;
But when your thoughts are tied, you turn away from the truth,
They grow heavier and duller and are not at all sound.

When they are not sound, the spirit is troubled;
What is the use of being partial and one-sided then?
If you want to walk the course of the One Vehicle,
Be not prejudiced against the six sense-objects.

When you are not prejudiced against the six sense-objects,
You are then one with the Enlightenment;
The wise are non-active,
While the ignorant bind themselves up;
While in the Dharma itself there is no individuation,
They ignorantly attach themselves to particular objects.
It is their own mind that creates illusions –
Is this not the greatest of all self-contradictions?

The ignorant cherish the idea of rest and unrest,
The enlightened have no likes and dislikes:
All forms of dualism
Are contrived by the ignorant themselves.
They are like unto visions and flowers in the air;
Why should we trouble ourselves to take hold of them?
Gain and loss, right and wrong –
Away with them once for all!

If an eye never falls asleep,
All dreams will by themselves cease:
If the Mind retains its absoluteness,
The ten thousand things are of one Suchness.

When the deep mystery of one Suchness is fathomed,
All of a sudden we forget the external entanglements;
When the ten thousand things are viewed in their oneness,
We return to the origin and remain where we ever have been.

Forget the wherefore of things,
And we attain to a state beyond analogy;
Movement stopped and there is no movement,
Rest set in motion and there is no rest;
When dualism does no more obtain,
Oneness itself abides not.

The ultimate end of things where they cannot go any further
Is not bound by rules and measures:
In the Mind harmonious [with the Way] we have the principle of identity,
In which we find all strivings quieted;
Doubts and irresolutions are completely done away with,
And the right faith is straightened;
There is nothing left behind,
There is nothing retained,
All is void, lucid, and self-illuminating;
There is no exertion, no waste of energy
This is where thinking never attains,
This is where the imagination fails to measure.

In the higher realm of true Suchness
There is neither "self" nor "other":
When direct identification is sought,
We can only say, "Not two".

In being "not two" all is the same,
All that is is comprehended in it;
The wise in the ten quarters,
They all enter into this Absolute Reason.

This Absolute Reason is beyond quickening [time] and extending [space],
For it one instant is ten thousand years;
Whether we see it or not,
It is manifest everywhere in all the ten quarters.

Infinitely small things are as large as large things can be,
For here no external conditions obtain;
Infinitely large things are as small as small things can be,
For objective limits are here of no consideration.

What is is the same as what is not,
What is not is the same as what is:
Where this state of things fails to obtain,
Indeed, no tarrying there.

One in All,
All in One –
If only this is realized,
No more worry about your not being perfect!

Where Mind and each believing mind are not divided,
And undivided are each believing mind and Mind,
This is where words fail;
For it is not of the past, present, and future.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Drug of choice





Sex always sells.Death is a thrill.Imitate my lack of patience.How much we pay to be tailor made fashions fade the trends will change.In your eyes is the picture perfect In your eyes does the grass look greener have you seen it through my eyes.... The world has caught on fire from what I've been told these city lights are killing ever slowly the sanity with-in me maybe I lost in my creation. This isn't how i thought I'd turn out. I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed, dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone. Playing movies in my head that make a loneliness feel like my best friend. There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain an ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again? and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? and will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space.. Its not your Cause... One Day you will forget this! So hate me today, hate me tomorrow, hate me for all the things i didnt do for you, hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

Smoke and Mirrors

The past few months have taught me a lot. falling in and out of love, Actions and Motives. Fate turns me victim to everything I have done. Oh what tingled webs we weave when we practice to deceive. I just don't get it.. why it has to end this way! I found the perfect one but I cannot hold on because the fates see my future differently. She built me from scratch... my soul shared the same reflection as hers. Why don't you see you and i share the same reflection why don't you see that we cannot survive in this condition if you're cut i'll bleed so go on. Carve into your own heart i could use a new scar or a brand new start, slowly severing the only memories that bind us as one.We have lost all communication when words fall on deaf ears i'm starting to feel ,a transformation how did i get here i don't recognize my own reflection it's a ghost of what once was gone from relative to stranger separating body from mind. I just don't know how to win with you, i can't let go part of me. Please will
you stay the same i'll remain to change.
I'm Sorry I have to Let Go! We are dying in slow motion.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

As you are I was! And as I am You Will be!

Time doesn't change people, It removes the shadows from your eyes
An enlightenment, a light at the end of the tunnel
A knowledge of Ages, my perception to make the world just
we are never alone the paths we choose,
so many feet have walked on, so much dead skin
yet the road is still new, I think about a solution
yet a solution stares me in the face!
Is she the one? Where did I go wrong?
I Just wanna be free...... I'm done with these thots!
Tonight I will Jump....... My only Solution!...
You never know until the deed is done...
I will talk to you...... I only pray you will Listen!

 I am not The First.........
                                      I will not be the Last!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Lips staind with a crimson drop

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I get lost in your melody
Our youthful pair are paralyzed by
the coils of the unforgiving trap
I learnt if firey feelings
are strong within your soul,
pierce with the wavering blade
gently like water
and passionately like a blossom
despite shutting the destined tears,
deep within our eyes,
Thinking of the myriad stars that rain down upon us
how the blood tethers of our deep bond
Even if the glowing eyes that sparkle with a sapphire shine
are shut by a herald of darkness,
no one can take away the bridge woven in dreams
so let those eyes reflect the infinite tomorrow
hold my hand , forget about forever
my eternal embrace

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Its never love

Recently...
I went all out to impress a bird, but my efforts......
well they were not that promising. My head span with thoughts of confusion.
If we could just be friends, start all over again. If this feelings were not just....

For the first time I thought the world was fair.......
but I did not see her poker face!!!!!


INFATUATION!!

I just want to forget...

Sunday, June 13, 2010

You were the best I ever had

Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend

So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me
I didn't mean to make you leave

You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

We fell in love for a reason
Now you're leaving
And I just want you back
So many things we believed in
Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back
I'll never let go of the heart I broke


I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were the best I ever had
I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were,
You were the best I ever had