Drug of choice

Sex always sells.Death is a thrill.Imitate my lack of patience.How much we pay to be tailor made fashions fade the trends will change.In your eyes is the picture perfect In your eyes does the grass look greener have you seen it through my eyes.... The world has caught on fire from what I've been told these city lights are killing ever slowly the sanity with-in me maybe I lost in my creation. This isn't how i thought I'd turn out. I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed, dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone. Playing movies in my head that make a loneliness feel like my best friend. There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain an ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again? and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? and will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space.. Its not your Cause... One Day you will forget this! So hate me today, hate me tomorrow, hate me for all the things i didnt do for you, hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.

Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

Smoke and Mirrors

The past few months have taught me a lot. falling in and out of love, Actions and Motives. Fate turns me victim to everything I have done. Oh what tingled webs we weave when we practice to deceive. I just don't get it.. why it has to end this way! I found the perfect one but I cannot hold on because the fates see my future differently. She built me from scratch... my soul shared the same reflection as hers. Why don't you see you and i share the same reflection why don't you see that we cannot survive in this condition if you're cut i'll bleed so go on. Carve into your own heart i could use a new scar or a brand new start, slowly severing the only memories that bind us as one.We have lost all communication when words fall on deaf ears i'm starting to feel ,a transformation how did i get here i don't recognize my own reflection it's a ghost of what once was gone from relative to stranger separating body from mind. I just don't know how to win with you, i can't let go part of me. Please will
you stay the same i'll remain to change.

I'm Sorry I have to Let Go! We are dying in slow motion.

As you are I was! And as I am You Will be!

Time doesn't change people, It removes the shadows from your eyes
An enlightenment, a light at the end of the tunnel
A knowledge of Ages, my perception to make the world just
we are never alone the paths we choose,
so many feet have walked on, so much dead skin
yet the road is still new, I think about a solution
yet a solution stares me in the face!
Is she the one? Where did I go wrong?
I Just wanna be free...... I'm done with these thots!
Tonight I will Jump....... My only Solution!...
You never know until the deed is done...
I will talk to you...... I only pray you will Listen!

 I am not The First.........
                                      I will not be the Last!

Lips staind with a crimson drop

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I get lost in your melody
Our youthful pair are paralyzed by
the coils of the unforgiving trap
I learnt if firey feelings
are strong within your soul,
pierce with the wavering blade
gently like water
and passionately like a blossom
despite shutting the destined tears,
deep within our eyes,
Thinking of the myriad stars that rain down upon us
how the blood tethers of our deep bond
Even if the glowing eyes that sparkle with a sapphire shine
are shut by a herald of darkness,
no one can take away the bridge woven in dreams
so let those eyes reflect the infinite tomorrow
hold my hand , forget about forever
my eternal embrace

Its never love

Recently...
I went all out to impress a bird, but my efforts......
well they were not that promising. My head span with thoughts of confusion.
If we could just be friends, start all over again. If this feelings were not just....

For the first time I thought the world was fair.......
but I did not see her poker face!!!!!


INFATUATION!!

I just want to forget...

You were the best I ever had

Now I know I messed up bad
You were the best I ever had
I let you down in the worst way
It hurts me every single day
I'm dying to let you know

Now I'm here to say I'm sorry
And ask for a second chance
Cause when it all comes down to the end
I could sure use a friend

So many things I would take back
You were the best I ever had
I don't blame you for hating me
I didn't mean to make you leave

You and I were living like a love song
I feel so bad, I feel so bad that you're gone
Now I know you're the only one that I want
I want you back, I want you

And ask for a second chance
All I want to do is make it up to you
Cause when it all comes down to the end
You were the best I ever had

We fell in love for a reason
Now you're leaving
And I just want you back
So many things we believed in
Now you're leaving and words won't bring you back
I'll never let go of the heart I broke


I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were the best I ever had
I can't believe that I threw away all our dreams
I can't believe now that you're gone how much you mean to me
I feel so bad, I feel so bad
You were,
You were the best I ever had

This is how I always see her my Empress